Writings

We all have a part of self that doesn’t want us to heal.

To heal is to change, and this part of you was designed by nature to be wary of change.

When we let go of trying to control our bodies, we set ourselves free. This means we can finally turn attention toward taking care of ourselves.

It feels like something is changing. Like there's been a shift from somewhere deep inside me, despite not knowing how or where it's coming from.

So I surrendered to intuitive eating again. And in the beginning it always feels fantastic. I immediately feel less frantic around food. I relax. I live. I feel some peace and sometimes even manic joy. But then things begin to unfold in a way that has become predictable...

I’m reading some old-school Geneen Roth, and I'm realizing I don't know how to live without the drama. I've been playing out this food and body drama on the stage of my life since I was 13 years old.

Something really powerful is still blocking me. Something is standing in the way of really basic and consistent self-care. There's a fear. Something that rises up from within, whenever I even consider moving in the direction of taking better care of myself.